When I was small, I told Him, “You are so powerful, you can make all things move and you plan what things will happen to your creatures. You are so awesome, and I know you won’t hurt them including me. I know you love me.”

But when I was in grade 5, all turned upside down. All problems came crashing to an innocent mind. A lot of problems sprouted like mushrooms, they all broke my fragile heart. I felt unloved, rejected and different from my classmates because I now have a broken family. Yes, after years of misery and agony with my father, my mom decided to leave him and start a new life with just the four of us.

A new beginning. We were choosing from a lot of options, but how will we start when we left everything we have started with him? How will we start when we carried all the hurtful experiences deep inside our broken hearts?  Where will we start when my heart and mind stayed with my friends there and it would mean difficult for me to adjust to my new environment?

I felt that the world crashed on me and that the world hates me. Why will the Lord do this to me—to us? Why would he let us suffer and experience these difficulties when He said He loves us? I would sometimes ask myself, “Love ba talaga kami ni God? Bakit niya kami hinahayaang masaktan?”, but every time I ask this question to myself, I would remember my mom’s words, “Anak, hindi naman nagbibigay si Lord ng problema na hindi natin kayang malagpasan. Magpray lang tayo”, and every night we would pray to Him and ask him to guide us and Papa.

My mom is strong; she tries her best not to cry in front of us, and I tried to be strong too. As the panganay, I tried my best to show my adings that I am strong and that this tragedy will end. I prayed really hard for His guidance and for the day of the mending and healing of my broken heart, I continued to say my prayers every night.

Today, I can feel God’s unfailing, unending and unconditional love with what I am, with what I have, with what I am doing and in what I will become in the future. God showed me that He is really potent and loving. He didn’t stop in showering us with blessings and with good friends.

I learned the value of love, that in love, we also tend to give up because the love we give to a person is not reciprocated, we become numb and we just realize that it’s too much and you decide to stop loving that person. I also learned that the highest form of love is the Love of God, that all things are possible with Him, that all things would fall rightly into place, that we will overcome the problems we encounter and that He is really mighty and He is worth-praising. He will never abandon us and he would always make a way for us to see his unfailing and unconditional love.